#46

baru lepas stalk blog orang.
teringin nak jadi cantik mcm dia.
pakai apa pon cantik.
buat muka buruk macammana pon tetap cantik.
senyum macammane sekali pn tetap manis.

#45

saja je nak tukar nama blog. bagi privacy siket. :D

#43

last night, i tweeted this :
Xpayah nak tulis bersyukur kpd tuhan dekat facebook nak bagi satu dunia tahu. Cukup lah dalam hati. Allah tahu apa dalam hati kita.

i did that because i am so tired of reading all the ustazah and ustaz segera dekat facebook. bukan xboleh, tapi pada aku, doa kita adalah private antara kita dan MAHA PENCIPTA. bukan utk dihebahkan.

out of sudden, ada orang terasa with my tweet and kept ambushed me with mean words. she said that aku iri hati dengan dia and aku punya perangai ni xada lah baik sgt. aku jugak ada buruk burukkan org dekat twitter.


yes, i admit it. but my tweet is random. i am not specifically tujukan tweet tu kepada dia. right ? kenapa dia nak emosi xtentu pasal. weird.

then dia unfollow me on twitter.

this afternoon, i updated my facebook like this :

-Calling me fake won't make you real. Calling me ugly won't make you beautiful. Calling me mean wont make you nice.

dan ketidakpuas hatian dia kepada aku seolah olah tida penghujungnya. she updated her status lebih kurang mcm ni lah : baiki diri sendiri dulu, kita xboleh nak puaskan hati semua org etc.

apalah yang dia nak emosi sgt dengan aku ? -.-'

so, this is for you, dear :
i found this from my friend's twitter:

-You can have different point of view from mine, but not listening to what others say is total rudeness.

-Listening is not necessarily agreed. Listening shows how you can accept others opinion like how you wanted they accept yours.

i am sorry if my tweet made you feel offended.but that tweet is random.

#42

#41

ni apa yg aku nak dekat dulang hantaran tunang nanti. patutnya 7dulang kan ?
lagi tiga- sirih junjung, buah buahan dengan telekung. heeee. *berangan.

#40

semalam ambik result+ buat registration untuk sem akhir.
aku agak xpuas hati dengan result equity & trust II dengan Human Resource Management Strategies. tapi nak buat macammane kan ? kena lah terima. malas nak nangis nangis macam sem lepas.

sem depan sem last.
lepas tu praktikal 6bulan.
harap harap xde apa apa halangan.
insyaAllah.

#39

Tadi pagi aku bukak kotak yang ada atas almari. It is full of surat surat sepanjang aku sekolah menengah and kad kad raya. So i decided to read it one by one.

It was fun. Reminiscing the good old days when i was in the secondary school.

I started to write letters and received letters masa lepas habis UPSR. It began with my first ever boyfriend, azizan. He is 2 years younger than me. That means whens i was in standard six, he was in standard four. Hahaha. We managed to take picture together but i cut the picture when we broke up. Comel gilaaaaaa. We broke up when i was in form two kot.lupa lah.

Ada satu surat tu, helmi yang bagi(azizan’s bestfriend). It is written like this:

“atiqah, azizan minx surat. Sila beri suratnya pada hari isnin”.

Oh my god. Sweet gilaaaaa !

Masa form 1, i was in boarding school for 3months. Ada surat dari kakak and abg angkat. Siap aku ada simpan gambar kakak angkat aku. Haha. Sweet.

Bila pindah ke STA, aku masuk 1 Mujtahidah. I cant remember rapat dengan siapa selain aerina.

I had lots and lots of adik angkat. I got adik angkat masa dekat sekolah agama. Masa tu, aku,wahida, syue were the “paling tua” dekat sekolah agama. Haha. Ramai budak tulis surat nak jadi adik angkat aku. Haha * feels like slapping my own face now.

When i was in 2Mustaqimah, aku rapat gila dengan anim. Aku jumpa notes yang anim bagi masa perhimpunan sekolah. Tapi anim pindah pontian. Start tu aku rapat dengan ikin. Tapi aku lebih selesa dengan kawan sekolah agama. Aifa, siti, wawa, syue, wana and alyza.

I was so obsessed with akademi fantasia, siap ada nama timbangan ATIQADIFASHLANDING INDRAWANI. Oh my -.-‘ xpon, atiqazid( atiqah + cikgu yazid)

Masa naik form 3Mumtazah, aku rapat dengan fariza. Tapi dekat kelas je rapat dengan dia. Aku lebih rapat dengan ikin and wawa sbb satu tempat tusyen math. This is when i started to admire fuad. My letters were all about, fuad fuad fuad.

Seronok sangat bila baca balik semua surat surat tu. Rasa ada ramai sangat kawan baik. And aku tahu mereka semua bukan friend for benefit since masa tu semua nya innocent lagi. I miss those moment. I was so happy.

Naik form 4 kurang seronok pasal sekolah, tapi seronok pasal hal peribadi. I dont like 4 mujtahidah at all. Masa awal form 4, semua kawan aku pindah. Rodziah, syue, wawa. Ikin pulak pindah 4 cerdas. Masa ni aku start rapat dengan fiezwani, atikah roslan, masayu.

Ahhh rindu masa ramai kawan. Paling seronok bila baca balik dekat surat tu, diorang cakap, seronok ada kawan macam awak, or Cuma kau lah kawan baik aku. :’)

Sekarang dah xmacam dulu. I dont have much friends. Aku refuse nak ada kawan rapat.

Aku rindu kawan kawan. Aku rindu anim, ikin, fiezwani, mus, wawa, syue, rodziah, atikah roslan. :’)

#38

#37

aku berifikir-fikir.
bila aku start kerja je,
kereta yang aku pakai sekarang aku terpaksa serahkan pada adik aku
sbb dia pulak sambung belajar.

jadi aku terpaksa beli kereta baru.
harga myvi aku tengok malam tadi
RM57,000.
so, aku buat kira kira.

kalau starting kerja,
gaji bersih aku RM2000.
RM500 buat bayar kereta.
RM1200 bayar duit rumah.
rumah kalau dekat shah alam seriously, ridiculously MAHAL.
=RM1700

habis, MARA aku nak bayar pakai apa?
makan, nak makan apa?
duit minyak?
duit tol?
duit nak simpan utk kahwin?
duit nak bagi mak ayah?

urmm. buntu. -.-'

#36

this is my worst birthday ever.
no cake.
no makan luar.
order home delivery domino's pizza
dah 2jam tunggu xsampai sampai.

and semua orang dalam rumah ni moody.

#35

awak, thanks for the bithday present.
i love it. :D
lepas ni kena menabung nak beli instax dia pulak.
hikshiks

#34

hello ! i am back. hehuuu. korea was fantastic. but i love my tanah tumpahnya darahku more :D
since it was my second time in korea, so we decided to spend 3 days free and easy exploring the seoul. we tried the subway which is amazing. the train will come every five minutes, not like malaysia -.-' siap boleh tengok satu cerita dekat wayang, baru train sampai. we tried the ktx which is moving with 800km/j. their advance technologies captivate me !

i always wonder why korean people slim slim semuanya. ahhh, bila dekat sana baru dapat tahu, dekat sana penuh dengan tangga ! everything tangga !

i walked nearly 7km in geonhju ! so, dont be suprised if my tigh muscle is as big as sazali samad's.

i lose weight. probably because of the lack of variety of food in korea.

ahhhh, i will post the pictures of me in korea later.

cant wait to meet kubah tomorrow. we are going back to batu pahat together. :D
ahah ! i dont know since when kubah jadu org batu pahat jugak -.-'

till then. talk to you later. XOXO

#33

i'm going to korea tonight.
yeayyy !
this is my second time going to korea.
the first time was in 2008.

cant wait on the free and easy part.
my friend will pick us up
and we will be travelling by KTX !

i hope somehow Lee Minho will appear in front of us!
ahah. -.-' dreamingggggg

so long malaysia :D

so longg uqbah said.
i'm gonna miss you.
:')

#32

i hate my body. like seriously.
i am too super duper skinny sampai i am embarrassed to wear anything.
i feel like hodoh and buruk because i dont have any shape and curve.

even if bila pakai baju kurung pon.
orang asyik tegur aku kurus.
atok sedara aku cakap aku kurus mcm batang buluh.
-.-'

yes.
sumpah rasa nak tanam diri dalam tanah.

#31

jiran sebelah rumah kena kangker. dah stage 4. doktor predict dia boleh hiudp lagi 2-3 bulan je. it is scary when we know when we will die. aunty asked me to visit uncle bila free. i will aunty :) insyaAllah.

my emak and ayah xbagi kahwin dalam masa terdekat ni. damn.
before kahwin both of us kena habis belajar,
kena beli rumah
kena ada duit nak buat majlis dekat dewan.

this is madness.
but i will never bantah cakap mak dengan ayah
since mak cakap
"kalau kau degil, masa susah kgn carik mak".
so, i have to follow what emak and ayah ask me to do.

so, lets pray,
lagi 4 tahun aku dah mampu nak beli rumah.
mampu nak tanggung kos utk seribu jemputan di dewan.

can i just move to another planet where money does not matter ?
:(

#30

so, here we are.
today is the final day of my final examination for semester 5 bachelor in law and commerce.
msu has been a little bit cruel when they susun 3 paper back to back.
ohsemmm msu ! kami memang robot ! -.-'
so, aku sertakan gambar gambar sepanjang semester 5 :D

#29

it was a cool movie.
and most of all,
the main actor in this movie is super duper damn handsome !

#28

syabas.
kau pindah rumah xbayar bil api, bil elektrik.
dah la mak kau jerit dekat pintu
cakap aku treat kau mcm binatang.
habis kau biar aku dengan ida
bayar bil api yg dah sampai cecah ratusan ringgit ni
xmacam binatang pulak perangai kau kan ?

#27

i have to study hard. it is for my future.

even if it seems to be impossible to get good result for this semester,
i am still trying to work hard on it.
who knows i am lucky enough to get all B's in my final exam right ?

do pray for me.

#26

aku sangat susah hati dengan perangaitakpandainakfikirpanjangbilaakumarah yang sangat sangat membawa mudarat dalam diri.

mungkin sebab aku dah pendam kemarahan lama sangat maka ia meletup.


atau mood swing yang aku alami akhir akhir ni buat aku xboleh nak fikir dengan rasional.

sikit je lagi nak habis belajar. aku xpatot buat masalah lagi -.-'

memang org tu bermasalah, tapi aku patot lebih sabar.

aihhh whatever pon, the damage is done.

aku kena terima consequences dari benda bodoh yg aku dah buat sebab aku ngadap muka tu tiap hari.

haihhhhh -.-'